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Let's talk how incredible it is to spend your time doing what you've always felt was your Thing, despite any shitty circumstances you've had to endure or doubt you've had to contend with, the thing that was always there for you when it felt like everything else was falling away, even when you were at a loss for inspiration or temporarily waylaid by fear or lack of money or time or resources, just finding your way back eventually, even if it's months or even years later, and picking up where you left off, and doing the thing and doing the thing until you can't remember why you ever stopped doing that freaking thing, and it is still hard, maybe, and draining definitely, but so incredibly affirming and all you want to do is the thing but until that can become a reality, you just do the thing as much as you can and it is so, so good.